The Heart of the Matter

On March 17th, I went into the hospital to have a cardiac ablation. This procedure is supposed to keep my heart from racing out of control. It will take a whole year to see if the process was successful. It has left me tired. I am ready to move but my body is not. I try to argue with myself but it does no good. I am always defeated by my lack of energy.

So what's a woman to do? The problem is I want what I want when I want it. Sound familiar? God is so gracious and patient with me. He is teaching me to wait on Him. My heart has to learn this as I progress through this time. The procedure had nothing to do with my heart attitude. I am afraid that I am the only one who can control that!

The surgeon worked on my heart for six hours. Wouldn't it be great if I could correct my attitude in six hours? This next year will come and go and I will still be working on my attitude. My desire is that I will be more in line with Jesus at the end of this year than I am now. And the year after that...and the year after that...and the year after that...conforming more to His Image.

The heart of the matter is whether my heart beats too fast or too slow, I have to have a heart attitude that's becoming more and more like Jesus. I thank God for giving me the new heart in Him, a pliable heart not a heart of stone. I thank God for His Spirit who lives within me to guide me and give me discernment. I thank God for His Word which gives me direction as I live out my life. When I think on these things, I can lay back in my chair in peace just resting in Him.